It's been just over a month. The day before Valentine's day was our D-Day. What an awful holiday to begin with, but now? Now it is forever ruined in my mind. The day of love and admiration is the day of your betrayal, destruction, and mistrust for me. Forever. Forever ruined. I've never had a … Continue reading Repairing;
The most important lesson I am relearning on a daily basis is the extreme power of energy. As quickly as I chose to cut my parachute strings, I learned to fly. How can you heal when you surround yourself with hurt? Seclusion is the most beautiful thing when you are practicing self love. The clearest … Continue reading Energy;
However lovely the day, it's in the back of my mind. Every time. It creeps in like the quiet blow of cold air when the house is trying to maintain it's temperature. I remember different things every time. The fights, the sex, the routines, the silence, and most of all the rings. It's an eerie … Continue reading Journey;
It was made. However hard. Through it all; the fighting, screaming, crying, drinking myself in to a spiraling downward plane. I did it. I chose you, again; like always. I chose you. Ever in my life had I thought I knew love; I did not. No love could ever measure up to how quickly I … Continue reading Decision;
You broke me from the inside out. Over 7 girls that I had to find on my own because, somehow, you couldn't remember. Over 115 images of JUST Katrina. Let me fill you all in on Katrina. This is an old ex, of only 3 months, who called the police to raid his apartment. She … Continue reading Broken;
I found it. I pointed the flash light at it. I put the cards on the table. I forced your eyelids to pry wide open. I forced it out because I deserved it in the very least. It wasn't easy. You lied the whole way through this obstacle of a conversation. You defended yourself. You … Continue reading Truth;
My imaginary life was coming together. Piece by piece, line by line. You glued it all and created this paper mache house for us. You would add more tissue as we went along, repairing all the small holes that appear. JUST in time too, so I missed them all. You were great at this. Possibly … Continue reading Renting;
Maybe this was the craziest thing we have done. Maybe it was the least smart. Maybe it was the wrong thing, but we did it and we did it fast. A quiet night on the couch turned into one of my biggest life events. You asked me to marry you; or more or less word … Continue reading Engagement;
It felt surreal. You made a huge decision and it was all for me; for us. You left everything. Packed it all up and walked away from it all. Like you were just turning the light off in the garage and closing the door. It was simple to you. Like a small gesture of love. … Continue reading Moving to AZ;
Months after the beginning, you drove across state lines to see me. You would spend countless hours just to get to see my face every weekend. This kind of action was so foreign to me. You made me feel invincible. Like the most beautiful, luckiest woman in the world. I hadn't even been taken out … Continue reading Traveling;
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