Decision;

It was made. However hard. Through it all; the fighting, screaming, crying, drinking myself in to a spiraling downward plane. I did it. I chose you, again; like always. I chose you.

Ever in my life had I thought I knew love; I did not. No love could ever measure up to how quickly I chose to forgive you.

Imagine looking at your best friend right in the eyes. You are hurting, but that is your person. You need to be comforted. You need to be held. You need them. No matter the pain they caused you; they heal you even harder.

The minute I touched you again. Energy surged through my veins. I felt it all. All the reasons to love you. I felt a rush of understanding and empowerment. I felt like I could see reasons in how we could overcome this. I felt love. I felt different and I wanted to try.

We are young, I thought. We are dumb and we are trying to figure out our lives and emotions. We will make mistakes, I told myself. We can get through this.

I hope.